In the last whew weeks life has been nothing more then a fucking rollercoaster. My problem from [link] was finally resolved, my friend and I (after much tears, and arguing) agreed that I would avoid Roman as humanly possible. And its thanks to this decision I’ve became sick physical and mentally ill. It was so severe that my head felt as though it was going to split into two, the pain caused nausea, and vertigo. I was bed ridden for almost a whole week, I welcomed the pain with open arms. I was also going through depression at this point of time, and to make myself suffer more I was overdosing on Oxcodone (as you may recall from my older journals this drug caused me some problems: [link] ) hoping that it would kill me eventually. Death is not the way out; it will never be the way out of a problem. Suicide can only cause more problems, and sorrow.

Yesterday was my first day back to school in almost a week and a half, and it just happened to be my 16th birthday as well. I spent a whole week without seeing Roman, until the end of school where I forgot that he usually waited for me. To my great relief he had wrestling and couldn’t hang out, but his simple “happy birthday Celeste” and a quick hug put me into a world of bliss. So I walk into my house feeling all happy, and giddy when a deep voice spoke up “what’s wrong with your face?” and with that I was angry yet giggling like a madman. It was my big brother Justin who stopped by to say happy birthday to me… This years stash of gifts were beyond what I deserved, a pair of black pearl stud earrings from my grandparents. Little knickknacks from my sister, but its what my little brother and parents got me is what blew my mind away. My little brother Wesley got me a P.O.P (Portrait. Of. Pirates) Portgas, D. Ace, one of his friends parents was posted in Japan and sent it to Wesley for my B-day (strait from Japan). And from my parents…a new camera, a Coolpix L100, Nikon. A pretty nice camera… and that was my B-day there was more to it, but these were the main points of my day ^^

I’ll be uploading some pics and updating my page which I haven’t done seince I first joined almost two years ago

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